The dream of my life and where I am being directed to go – I am not sure where my own desires became replaced with the expectations others have for me that I adapted. But I can’t deny that it did and sometimes continues to happen. But at least I am now aware of when it happens Being an avid student and learner – I love knowledge (the acqusition of it) being able to grasp a concept and being smarter or more understanding of the world view I have developed and the tolerant to what I have gained. What does an education afford you in this scenario? The ability to decipher the important things in life – or at least I will say on my journey an education has afforded me the opportunity to crtiticallly analyze my life, education and other’s expectations of me and where they intersect.

I have begun the next chapter of my life glad for the experience of an education and the gift of critically analyzing the steady diet of crap that is sometimes fed to me. I don’t always like it – it is not always fair – but I know what I will fight for and what I will let go. So thank you blessed education – you have granted me an understanding of the way my world works for me.

I am blessed to have an education but it is not the end of my destination. I understand that it does not matter to many even though I have it (a certificate) does not necessarily grant my immediate acceptance and entrance into mainstream and often times they will question my acquisition it.

And here is where my experience enters – it has granted me the practical application of that education. To see, deny or even accept events in my life for what they are. Sometimes I am the victim, other times I am the aggressor and other times it has nothing at all to do with me.

So when do I know what I am doing belongs to me or another. I would say 99.9% of the time I can quickly get the answer to that burning question but I would not stop the journey to sit with it for long because I just might miss the pleasure or the sting of pain from the experience. And that my friend is living. So thank you for raising this question. I had a great time thinking about it.

Michy

I remember reading an email that described the various ages of women and the positive attributes that they can achieve at each decade. The attributes for the 30s and 40s stood out to me, namely because I am always looking ahead, but because they stated that a woman in that time of her life is confident, and self assured because she knows who she is. She doesn’t care what people say or think about her.
I know that it takes more than time to make a man or woman, and I know that time does not bring confidence- it is experience, and time (critically) with self. So maybe with 30 – 40 years of experience (in today’s society) women are given enough time, experience to examine themselves, their lives, their families, their friends and understand where they stand in the mix. What they do for themselves and for others, and why.
So I guess the point is not to necessarily wait until a ‘point in time’, but to understand what may be to come and let it wash over you gracefully. To boldly go and do whatever we want (on the side of right), and be confident that it is for the best, regardless of ‘others’.

It is to fear GOD not man.